ReAlIsAtIoNs:::::ThEy HuRt

Have you people ever have gone through the agony and  pain of true but bitter realisations about yourselves,i may sound very depressing and full of negative vibes,but today a realisation is hurting to the inner cores of my heart,i always believed in a philosophy that it is much more important to be a good human being other then anything else,and i always thought that no matter what i achieve or what i become but one thing i will make sure that people love me for the person i am.i always believed in my principles and ideals and tried to act according them i always did good to my friends,family,and everybody around(i always believed that),but even then if i make list of people who are content with me the list will result into something blank,because i never knew the limits,i may do hundred good things,but my one bad deed will cover up the latter,that's why i guess today i stand alone,i always cribbed about my life that no body understood me,i cursed so many people who came in my not so long journey of life,but i never realised that problem was within me always ,today i am realising,all the people who came into my life were extraordinary souls,but it was me who didn't realise their worth,but today a friend made me find the answers that why don't i have people around me,friends,girlfriend,and so many people who make your life worth living,i 

I can't list all the wrong deeds i did but yes i will  definately try to improve, atleast i will do some justice to my conscience